♦♦♦Rezo - Drop of Happiness ♦♦♦

I am still breathing alive & seeing you walk by me, you just look at me & in the glimpse of eye its like my world comes alive... until your gone out of sight.I look back at myself standing in the midst of the world that say "I" belong there.Its like I have to put on the cloak of the "SELF" that they want to see.I come back to my room & look at the picture of the Crucifix & there comes a thought that sacrifices are so painful.. and tears just falling looking at the picture as if my tears were the rosary of prayers to "THEE".Is it only me going through this feeling alone? is it only me feeling your love so deep? Is it only me wanting to see you so badly when you not around? Only questions but no answer.Sometime even if you have the whole ocean .. its just "One Drop" happiness I need .. I don't need the Ocean.DO you ever got a thought what will you do without me? Its like am taking a Long walk outside & its snowing .. my feet have started to freeze & my is heart beating just for you ... I am really breaking darling don't leave me like this , no strength to walk .. just hold my Hand before its too late .... I ask my Lord humbly why me ? You know its not a very pleasant place to be in at all, not a nice feeling its like being on the crucifix all the time & smiling... its like sometimes you come across people who often tell do remember me .... But I cannot forget the One who never asked. Its like breathing every morning as if I have to live & when night comes weaving my blanket with tears & now even my pillow is understanding to soak it up before it dawns.Its like a face unforgettable in my heart..I asked you for Christmas still waiting ... hahhaha New Year is round the Conner & still waiting,waiting like one Drop of happiness.Once my Muslim friend was fasting & praying during Ramadan .. I asked her if you ask anything will "ALLAH" give me & she answered it depends on you deeds because he looks at your heart & how honest is you prayer, have done anything good ? then i answered I don't know how will "GOD"judge me because all I know is that I honestly Love someone & I have nothing to offer but that I am honest & True heart .. will he still grant my wish & she Said Inshallah to that I said Amem.Sometimes living a picture of happiness is as helpless & useless even though your matured, grown up & Adult.Living this picture everyday is killing yourself slowly... its hurts so bad My God Jesus .. wish you were here & I would bend my knees hold you tight & cry like a baby .. please don't make go through this please...Help me... my Rezo!

Living with like & liking to love

Dint know how will i have to explain my self .. juggle my head or heart .. still appear just normal to my self & the rest of the world go by .. smiling , giving hi5 to friends .. then look deep into my heart that am loving to like and liking to love .. i look at myself in the mirror just to know how much more will i have to go through this all by myself .. just watching my self burn & hear my tears just to myself .. wanna fight but cannot fight.. just running back & forth .. choked windpipe .. words never want to be spoken. why will life have to be so messed up. its like landing on land of earthquake , seeing the tornado meeting the volcano , but all u wished was to be with you love & and not end up with Like ... I cant tell how am feeling.. its just like a suffocation ... don't know where to run. I was given a chance would have bend my knees at every alter of the planet .. just don't know my own strength.Its a sliced picture of me happy to the world & tearful inside ... every bit of my outer world is so perfect .. no sound of pain but cheers of Happiness .. but where will I go to scream out myself.. waking up everyday to the realization that living with like & liking to love.. down the memory lane i am gonna hate myself for not making up my strength to walk on the way of my dreams.. may be I would have been happy inside out.. but am afraid to take a chance, don't know I have started loving the feeling that wrong is right.. I wonder now that most beautiful & successful people around the world will definitely have a common thread .. unseen to everyone a thin line of sadness clinging to the pictures of happiness be it love or a crazy relationship.. its worth it if not judged on the platter of the world, still good even though its bad, still honest even though called cheating ,still pure passion & feeling even though not called LOVE. all these things wouldn't have happened if life had a way out to make a happier ends to everyone's feelings & smiles to Life too :) ♥

Strangers Anatomy!

Sometimes Life seems really strange ... we all are very happy in our own cuddly world ... day in & day out .. until something strangely crosses your like .. suddenly something has ripped u apart ... to be drawn to the the most unknown space of your heart .. don't know if this what I was looking for .. Someone suddenly has become someone special which cannot be expressed .. but only heart knows how it feels so strong .. its a bond that takes you so closer as if this what you were waiting for ... & you ask your self how can i have not got it before.. why me? no answers.. yet. It is wrong to think that love comes from long companionship and persevering courtship. Love is the offspring of spiritual affinity and unless that affinity is created in a moment, it will not be created for years or even generations. Just because you know someone doesn't mean you love them,and just because you don't know people doesn't mean you can't love them. You can fall in love with a complete stranger in a heartbeat, if God planned that route for you. So open your heart to strangers more often. You never know when God will throw that pass at you.. only when he knows that somethings are only possible through a rough Ride you get the answers to his eternal bliss which he wants you to witness when you have the stranger who has become your soul mate holding you in your arms ♥

Lost ♥

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried.I hate this feeling, it's one I know all to well, it's a thing called heartbreak and it hurts like hell.When I see you smile and know that its not for me, that's when I miss you the most.Love is just like magic, but magic is an illusion.Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned.When a boy sweeps you off your feet, he's in the perfect position to drop you on your ass.True love will never fade unless it was a lie.If you love me so much, why are you walking away?Every time I see him all cool, calm and collected, I lose my breath, my heart starts pounding, and I am painfully aware that I am not over him and he is over me.When someone calls me up at night I hold my breath I close my eyes I wait and hope and pray it will be you.The way you used to look at me I cant get it out of my head the way you used to be so free i just want that all again.20 years later you'll wake up in bed,and i wont be there,and you'll hate that im in your head.I never wanted to fit in any place except your heart But we grew apart Now rainy days are all i have And i keep dreaming in the past.A whole new day.A fresh new start.Forget it ever happened for good things fell apart.But now that he's not in my life,every little thing I see has lost it's shine.So I'll just smile and rearrange everyday, so you can build a better place saving face, I understand that you don't care you're unaware, that you crushed me.It just so turns out that my way of dealing with things isn't exactly normal. I don't talk with my friends about it, I don't talk to the person I'm angry with, and I most certainly do not indulge in a carton of chocolate ice cream... Honest.. Thought the love I had for you would not die but now you're fading away from my memory and I
dare not cry!

Lonely Heart ♥

Hey baby I don't know how am I suppose to live without you.. why am I being punished for just loving you & loving you so honestly.I wait for you to give me a glance..I have my world shattered without you near me,trust me I am still picking pieces of my heart to make my World back again .. but u walk by me & I have my world falling apart again, I have no strength in picking the pieces darling.When I was a child I laughed from my heart.. but now I laugh to hide my tears.I ask my heart all the time was I wrong or I had to go through this pain,it makes me feel walking all alone in the cold winter night with eyes filled with tears..all alone.I wish I could tell you & show you how much I love you.. cant you see it in my eyes? They say the solution to every problem in this world is when you bend you knees & Prayer ... I bend my soul & my tears as the offering of prayers to you my God .. will I still get what I want?? I ask to my self why did u cross my life, why did I feel so much love for you when all you had to do was leave me alone.Wish I could click on pause when I was in you arms .. I would have spend my entire lifetime in it.why do love hurt so much & why was I chosen & why did you come into my life .. Wish I could replace my heart every time in pain & tears & smile like life was the same without you.Its true that You and me could make the best of both worlds.My heart still wonders if you still thinking of me the way I think of you my darling.I feel like I have to hide myself in the closet & cry & when I am step out of the closet pretend to be happy to all & to your eyes too.I wish you were here beside me , I'd hold you & cry like a baby & never let you go...
Sometimes I wonder why is that life has its own chosen twist & turns .. will i ever get an answer? every night while going to bed,I have you in my thoughts,just next to my dreams weaving the dreams of u & me and I feel like living in that dream forever & never to wake up .. coz dreams are much better than reality.The time spent together was like building castle of happiness in my heart.. which has been crushed & thrown away... I look at my self in the mirror & feel that I don't know my self anymore..I still have to pick up the pieces of my dream castle.I wish someday you will will realize & come back to me.. my heart is still waiting for you

I Am Columbus OF My Own Soul!

I do not know how to start coz I dint realize that I was already in the journey.. I was a passenger in my own soul... wondering to lands of unknown & learning the way of life or should I say Life showing me the way to go. I have seen the sun touching the waves like a golden brush of a painter running through... & in the night its like the moon acting like a torch through a dark sky spreading its shimmery light.. I felt that its so awesome to watch it.. I am in the journey of my own soul... A navigator like Columbus, not knowing that life has to still show me so much within the hide & seek of day & night... like days passing by like flowing water. I am learning many things in this journey discovering to like, Love, passion, emotion,wanting & letting it go,actions of my reactions, waking up with smile... & waking up with heartache... When I am the only one for me when i need the most to know where I have been and why... When I me myself is asking How can I.Although I am loving the journey as it unfolds all the people I meet & all who are in journey with me, amazingly some of the surprises have come as smile & few as snow balls hitting u rite at you face & you cannot do nothing about it,but in midst of all this battle I have emerged strong & willing to be stronger.I have been naive soul wanting to carve out my map of life,naming the destinations & also showing the way through my eyes of heart & brain to be a part.Impressions have been strong when I have let someone so deeply connected to me & I have carved my own pinnacle in their heart.. like wishes answered on the wings of prayers... flying to the coast which make your wishes "Eternity" ... I don't know if Thou has written my destiny like this or I was given the gift to unwrap the pieces of the puzzle as I journey along.. with the feel of touch, sense of smell & a Heart to embrace with open arms like a Paradise of my dreams... Cant complaint coz I would have not been the way I am... had it not been the ocean of life making me stand strong with every wind & Storm....
A spectacular journey... Still " I Am Columbus OF My Own Soul"

The Art of Reading Life!

Strange but true how is it possible that Emotions can be so much beyond Grey sells of our brains... don't know if its the heart that rules or the wink of brain stops for a second..hahah I know makes me wonder too.... For instances sometimes you can just relate to someone so close, that reading the thoughts just becomes like reading the them like an open book or some one may have just touched you soul & strangely its not some one You know as your own, but still making you feel that here you belong forever.. with eyes being the window to the heart where nothing is hidden. You are just sitting there & watching the foot prints on your heart & you don't know what to say coz your thoughts are still trying to make sense to you and the foot prints are making a special place... You want to run & let it go, But you still holding on to it.. don't know where to place the feeling, Love it, Like it hate it or just Nice... Unable to view the clear picture when the fog is so strong. You wanna change the meaning of Life for sometime & wish that, what if you could spend your lifetime in that moment, but you cant predict the seasons to go unchanged while you weaving the bed of your dreams, just like castles in the air.. hoping to be a reality someday.Some times the rays of sun through the dark clouds are a beautiful picture to watch but doesn't not last long,however the glimpse stays like a fresh morning dew in your heart forever.. no one can change the feeling or take away from you till the last breath of the life... Ever wondered when you feel so cold in winter & when you sit in the morning sun it feels like the warmth is hugging you... a melting feeling but speaks so much that words cannot express... Some untold memories are just like that never to be forgotten!

Beyond Myself!

We are all Visitors of Time, people come & people go some make the time stand still in our lives... and that's when those become memories never to be forgotten. If I ever Leave this planet i will want to weave the blanket of emotions only filled with love, along with the tears & smiles I shared with You Baby!! Are u lessening to my whispers of my heart.... I don't if i can hold time & make you walk with me to the place I want you to come with me or express my thoughts which has so many things to say... Hey are u lessening to my whispers of my heart.. Somewhere in the noise of my day to day things I just wanna hide my silence.. Which longs for you to listen to the hush sound & the breeze that just touched you & went by... Are u listening
I don't know I will ever be able to tell you this How much I love You beyond this words I cannot express the Feeling I have.. But I know Baby I became Somebody Through Loving you the meaning was so true that You make me Find myself
I wanna sing that song "Dear Life"
Sometimes in life,
You run across a love unknown,
Without a reason, it seems like you, belong.
Hold on Dear Life,
Dont go off running from whats new,
I became somebody, through loving you.

Its simple Magical ♥

Amor!

Je dont sais whay aI la maman l'écrivant. Mais je belive c'est mon état d'esprit.Je somtimes croient qu'il ne devrait tout ressembler à un rêve .. aucune question, aucune réponse et tout tombant pour placer la façon que je veux.. Mon monde avec complet d'Amour.Je que dont connaissent comment agréable ou étrange cela peut sonner .. mais moi belive que j'aurai besoin d'aimer même jusqu'à la dernière haleine de ma Vie.Les gens peuvent-ils Aimer 2 personne à même temps ?C'est possible ou on doit être Vrai et autre juste un amour faux .. comment quelqu'un peut-il juger ? ? ?Je manque absolument de comprendre la raison.. Fait cela doit se distinguer de la personne à la personne ou les gens y ressemblent. Comment la période je parle de mon moi.. D'une façon étrange je que dont connaissent si je devrai jamais l'avouer à moi.I sentent d'une façon étrange quelque chose comme ça et moi dont veulent que ce soit cette voie jamais même dans mes rêves ..., mais sont je le faisant une "énorme chose" moi-même ou le quittent au Destin à deside..I sentent d'une façon étrange quelque chose comme ça et moi dont veulent que ce soit cette voie jamais même dans mes rêves ..., mais sont je le faisant une "énorme chose" moi-même ou le quittent au Destin à deside.Je crois que je ne suis pas gonin pour demander trop de moi, maintenant je vais le quitter la voie son et y permettre d'aller... Je devrais écrire beaucoup sur mes sentiments .. son doit être le voyage de, doux, amer, épicé, saumâtre et des petits moments magiques pour faire recepie complet.Aujourd'hui j'ai vraiment eu envie de le copier avec tout mon coeur....

Ola! Fast & Expesnsive

Wow!! this my expression when i saw the Worlds Most Expensive Car... Now let be honest... i saw it on in pictures & my expression was Amazing, my frind had visited Europe & clicked the pic for us to show she was back to India... I must say, the moment I saw it it was Like a thought inma mind will I be ever able to even glimse of it.It has a amazing History..
World's Most Expensive Cars

What is the most expensive car in the world? The 1931 Bugatti Royale Kellner Coupe was sold for $8,700,000 in 1987. However, that car and many alike will not be included in this list because it is not available on the market today. It is hard to imagine someone would actually spend 8 million dollars on a car instead of using it for something more productive. However, if you have the money and the opportunity, you will definitely spend a small fraction of it to place a few of these supercars in your garage. Here is the 10 most expensive production cars on the market.

1. Bugatti Veyron $1,700,000. This is by far the most expensive street legal car available on the market today. It is the fastest accelerating car reaching 0-60 in 2.6 seconds. It claims to be the fastest car with a top speed of 253 mph+. However, the title for the fastest car goes to the SSC Ultimate Aero which exceed 253 mph pushing this car to 2nd place for the fastest car.
1. Bugatti Veyron $1,700,000. This is by far the most expensive street legal car available on the market today. It is the fastest accelerating car reaching 0-60 in 2.6 seconds. It claims to be the fastest car with a top speed of 253 mph+. However, the title for the fastest car goes to the SSC Ultimate Aero which exceed 253 mph pushing this car to 2nd place for the fastest car.

1. Bugatti Veyron $1,700,000. This is by far the most expensive street legal car available on the market today. It is the fastest accelerating car reaching 0-60 in 2.6 seconds. It claims to be the fastest car with a top speed of 253 mph+. However, the title for the fastest car goes to the SSC Ultimate Aero which exceed 253 mph pushing this car to 2nd place for the fastest car.

Bugatti Veyron $1,700,000. This is by far the most expensive street legal car available on the market today. It is the fastest accelerating car reaching 0-60 in 2.6 seconds. It claims to be the fastest car with a top speed of 253 mph+. However, the title for the fastest car goes to the SSC Ultimate Aero which exceed 253 mph pushing this car to 2nd place for the fastest car... But this Wild beast has deffinatly taken my breadth away...