The Smile of my Sadness

We always ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us.Cry as I may these tears won’t wash you away.As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you.The hardest to do is waking up without you.I dont know where I am going, dont know whats holding us. I am already into pieces.. just picking them up,but dont know how long will I be able to walk on the road.The times we were happy together are worth the times I cry alone.I hate the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without you.Our sweetest songs are those that tell of the saddest thoughts. I try to find you every where I go, to shopping, sipping cofee with my friends or just the things you said you liked.. makes me smile.. with my sad face.I hate you and everything we once were.True love will never fade unless it was a lie.If you love me so much, why are you walking away?I wish I saved all the tears I cried for you so I could drown you in them.While I was holding on, all you did was let go.You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?My heart was taken by you, broken by you and now it's in pieces because of you.I hate this feeling, it's one I know all to well, it's a thing called heartbreak and it hurts like hell.I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was.How do you heal a broken heart?I have no idea where to start because everything I do reminds me of you. How come the one i wanted to share my dreams with
took my dream from me.The sun can have the sky and it wouldnt matter.
The night can have its stars and i woudnt care.Tomorrow can be majestic yet remain empty,for it simply wouldnt matter without you there.I'm sorry for crying over you,because I said I wouldn't.But I didn't promise you that,because I knew it would be a promise,I would never be able to keep.I don't know what to do now that we're apart,I don't know how to live without the other half of my heart.There is nothing sadder in this life than to watch someone you love walk away after they have left you.To watch the distance between your two bodies expand,until there is nothing left but empty space... and silence.You wondered how you'd make it through. I wondered what was wrong with you. Because how could you give your love to someone else, yet share your dreams with me? Sometimes the only thing you're looking for, is the one thing you can't see.I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears.The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live.I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?"I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing, but I can't help it, cause I'm in love with you.Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you....