Heartbreaker !

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.My heart was taken by you... broken by you... and now it is in pieces because of you.Love is like falling down... in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever.Love is like falling down... in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever.Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet.For a few minutes you made me feel as though I actually meant something to someone,and then nothing at all.We are afraid to care to much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.I wish he meant it when he kissed me cause then I could look back and see someone who loved me but I can only go back and see someone who used me.You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?Sad isn't it? How no matter what you do or say to me... when you come running back... when you need me again... I'll be here... right here waiting for you, I'll take you back... no questions asked. Sad isn't it?You hurt me more then I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more then you deserve, why am I such a fool?You asked me what was wrong, I smiled and said nothing, when you turned around and a tear came down and I whispered to myself... everything.You wonder why I don't talk to you anymore and please believe me when I say it's not that I don't want to, it's just that everything I want to say I can't tell you anymore.Hold my hand, just one more time, so I can remind myself why it is that I can't get over you.I think its time I let you go... and that is hard to do because part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life.While I was holding on all you did was let go.Sometimes it's better to be alone. No one can hurt you that way.I just wonder how many people never get the one they want, but end up with the one they're supposed to have.The worst feeling in the world is knowing you've been used and lied to.Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever.Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone.I don't know which is worse, being with someone with a broken heart or being with the person that breaks your hearts.... dats Killing me.You always have an out. An exit strategy to make sure you don't get hurt. You always walk always. You walk away before they can walk away from you.Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have.This time it's over I'm keeping my heart, I'm gonna be strong and not fall apart... it'll get better, I'll no longer cry... in a couple of weeks I won't want to die, I won't want to go back. I'll be able to sleep, it won't hurt so bad and it won't hurt so deep!I would like to thank you, for showing me a part of myself that I have never seen. Yeah we were young and dumb, but it still was fun and I guess these things just tend to fall apart and I hope you feel the same.I know I'm not completely over him. He still crosses my mind several times a day, but with each one of those times, a feeling of contempt also passes through my heart. Maybe if this happens enough, my heart will become completely hardened to him, and I'll get to the point where he doesn't affect me anymore.Walk home drowning these memories in the rain biting my lip to transfer this pain, your gone and I'm still going through withdrawals, next time around I'll build a stronger wall.I'm afraid to give you my all, I'm afraid to love you completely. What if behind your beautiful face and kind words you are just bribing me. Maybe you are just reeling me in until you turn around and drop me. I'd fall so far and never be able to recover, I wish I could see the ending sometimes. I would know if I should hold on to you and keep going or just let it all end before I get up too high.You and me are inevitable, you're all that makes me happy but if you break my heart again, I'll kill you.I've been laying here all night, listening to the rain. Talking to my heart and trying to explain. Why sometimes I catch myself wondering what might have been. Yes I do think about you, every now and then.Am I mad at you? That's your main concern after shattering my whole world? Mad for what? Breaking my heart? Or for all the lies? Maybe for letting me put all my trust in you only to be betrayed? How about the fact you didn't even have the decency to tell me to my face? Or the way you think it's crazy that I'm crying over it cause to you breaking up is no big deal. Am I mad at you?... no. More like crushed... did I ever really know you?I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mending whole was good as new. What is broken is broken - and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.After a while, you learn the difference between holding a hand, and falling in love. You'll learn kisses don't always mean something. Promises can be broken just as easily as they were made, and as hard as it is to believe, sometimes goodbyes are forever. The hardest thing about knowing you don't love me,is that you spent so much time pretending that you did.If your gonna make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears.How could you make me love you and then not be there to love me back?I'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everythings perfect, act like its just a dream and pretend that he's not hurting me.The truth of the matter is, I still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off with out you, a part of me just won't let go.I feel like I am sitting in a room full of people that I love, and you know what, they just don't care that I love them. They don't care whether or not I live or die. To them I'm just another girl, just another stranger. To me, they are my best friends, the only people I have left.I'm gonna smile, because I wanna make you happy, laugh, so you won't see me cry. I'm gonna let you go in style, and even if it kills me, I'm gonna smile.Do I really love him or am I addicted to the pain of wanting something I can't have.No more crying, I can't cry anymore. Don't take my hand this time. Just go please and don't look back, because I know if you did, I'd come running back to you and I can't do that.Do you want to know what my problem is? I will tell you what my problem is, I LOVE YOU I love your name, I love the way you look at me, I love your gorgeous smile, I love the way you walk, I love your beautiful eyes, I love what you look like when you are asleep, I love the sound of your laugh, to hear your voice fills my entire heart with an indescribable feeling. I love the way I can be having the worst day of my life and seeing you completely changes my mood. I love how when you touch me.Don't stay because you think "it will get better". You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.Relationships are very simple. There are only two things that can happen. You either get married or your break up... Sad rite ...