Missing You badly !

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but some how feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.I might not get to see you as often as I'd like, I may not get to hold you in my arms at night, but deep in my heart I know that it's true. No matter what happens... I will always love you.I'm holding on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won't.I want to be with you tonight, tomorrow, and today it can't happen now but it will someday.I wish that I could hold you now... I wish that I could touch you now... I wish that I could talk to you... be with you somehow.A lot of people walk in and out of my life, but... you're one of the only ones I ever really wanted to stick around.Just because I moved on doesn't mean I won't be here if you change your mind.Maybe he's doing the same thing as me... maybe he wants so bad to call me, but just won't because I haven't called him... then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.I sit here and wonder if you'll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you.Even now after all this time, you called me and wanted me I'd say "yes! It's about time what took you so damn long!".Missing you isn't the problem, it's wondering if you'll ever come back that's killing me.I miss the talks we used to have, I miss the voice I used to hear... I miss hearing your crazy but cool stories, and above all these... I just miss you!I miss the talks we used to have, I miss the voice I used to hear... I miss hearing your crazy but cool stories, and above all these... I just miss you!I ofter catch myself constantly wondering how you are, sitting alone with my mind set so far, reminiscing about your smile, voice and touch, damn this life... I'm missing you too much!I get this feelings we'll be together again. No straight lines make up my life, all roads have bends. No clear cut beginning's and so far no dead ends.Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I don't have.If some thing happens and you lose me, please don' think that' the end, come and find again.I've been laying here all night, listening to the rain. Talking to my heart and trying to explain. Why sometimes I catch myself wondering what might have been. Yes I do think about you, every now and then.In this weird twisted way, I know you miss me liking you, not because I want to believe it's true, but because you'll never find a girl that can put up with you like I did; you'll never find a girl who will care as much as I did, because no one will waste all there love on someone like you, like I did.If you missed me then I'm sorry I didn't stay away longer, I like being missed.Just the thought of being with you tomorrow is enough to get me through today.It's YOU. You mean everything to me... you are the first thought in my head in the morning when I wake up; my last thought before I go to bed. You smile at me in my dreams... when you are sad, I fell sad, and when I see your true smile, I feel incredible, like there is no other thing around and all I can see is you.The best feeling in the world is to be millions of miles away and still be able to picture his eyes.Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people. But you never forget them. And sometimes, it's those memories that give us the strength to go on.I tell you goodnight with tears in my eyes, I wish I was there curled up by your side, Time passes, But not fast enough, I try to be strong. But I'm not that tough, When I feel you embrace it will be all right, But my heart aches for you on this lonely night.When I'm not there... do you think of me? When you're sad and something's bothering you... do you wish I were there to help comfort you? When you've had a long hard day... do you smile knowing that soon you'll be seeing me, and everything will seem better, even if it's just for a moment? When you lay down at night... do you look back and cherish the new memories you've made with me? And when you get up in the morning, does everything inside of you smile, knowing that this will be another day that we'll be together? because that's how I think of you...I can still remember just the way you taste.I want to be in your arms, where you hold me tight and never let me go.Hug me when I'm there, miss me when I'm not, kiss me every day, and love me for all eternity.If home is where the heart is, then wherever you are, that's my home.I wish that you were here or that I were there, or that we were together anywhere!Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you.When you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers, remember that in those spaces you can see my fingers locked with yours forever.I miss you most when I'm sad. I miss you when I'm lonely. But most of all, I miss you when I'm happy.Sometimes I miss you so much, I just want to rip you out of my dreams and hug you!Not being able to hold you has got to be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But I get to look forward to the next time you are in my arms; your smile only inches away from mine getting closer and closer until at last... our smiles meet. Something that beautiful... that's what keeps me going.I miss the way you used to hug me, I miss the way you used to kiss my lips, but most of all I miss the way you held me and my heart. I miss you...What I have with him is worth it. It is worth every lonely night, every tear I cry from missing him, and the pain I feel from not having him close. It is worth it because he is my one and only. When I picture myself years from now, I see only him. No matter how painful distance can be, not having him in my life would be worse.When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you. I miss you Baby !!