Lost ♥

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried.I hate this feeling, it's one I know all to well, it's a thing called heartbreak and it hurts like hell.When I see you smile and know that its not for me, that's when I miss you the most.Love is just like magic, but magic is an illusion.Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned.When a boy sweeps you off your feet, he's in the perfect position to drop you on your ass.True love will never fade unless it was a lie.If you love me so much, why are you walking away?Every time I see him all cool, calm and collected, I lose my breath, my heart starts pounding, and I am painfully aware that I am not over him and he is over me.When someone calls me up at night I hold my breath I close my eyes I wait and hope and pray it will be you.The way you used to look at me I cant get it out of my head the way you used to be so free i just want that all again.20 years later you'll wake up in bed,and i wont be there,and you'll hate that im in your head.I never wanted to fit in any place except your heart But we grew apart Now rainy days are all i have And i keep dreaming in the past.A whole new day.A fresh new start.Forget it ever happened for good things fell apart.But now that he's not in my life,every little thing I see has lost it's shine.So I'll just smile and rearrange everyday, so you can build a better place saving face, I understand that you don't care you're unaware, that you crushed me.It just so turns out that my way of dealing with things isn't exactly normal. I don't talk with my friends about it, I don't talk to the person I'm angry with, and I most certainly do not indulge in a carton of chocolate ice cream... Honest.. Thought the love I had for you would not die but now you're fading away from my memory and I
dare not cry!

Lonely Heart ♥

Hey baby I don't know how am I suppose to live without you.. why am I being punished for just loving you & loving you so honestly.I wait for you to give me a glance..I have my world shattered without you near me,trust me I am still picking pieces of my heart to make my World back again .. but u walk by me & I have my world falling apart again, I have no strength in picking the pieces darling.When I was a child I laughed from my heart.. but now I laugh to hide my tears.I ask my heart all the time was I wrong or I had to go through this pain,it makes me feel walking all alone in the cold winter night with eyes filled with tears..all alone.I wish I could tell you & show you how much I love you.. cant you see it in my eyes? They say the solution to every problem in this world is when you bend you knees & Prayer ... I bend my soul & my tears as the offering of prayers to you my God .. will I still get what I want?? I ask to my self why did u cross my life, why did I feel so much love for you when all you had to do was leave me alone.Wish I could click on pause when I was in you arms .. I would have spend my entire lifetime in it.why do love hurt so much & why was I chosen & why did you come into my life .. Wish I could replace my heart every time in pain & tears & smile like life was the same without you.Its true that You and me could make the best of both worlds.My heart still wonders if you still thinking of me the way I think of you my darling.I feel like I have to hide myself in the closet & cry & when I am step out of the closet pretend to be happy to all & to your eyes too.I wish you were here beside me , I'd hold you & cry like a baby & never let you go...
Sometimes I wonder why is that life has its own chosen twist & turns .. will i ever get an answer? every night while going to bed,I have you in my thoughts,just next to my dreams weaving the dreams of u & me and I feel like living in that dream forever & never to wake up .. coz dreams are much better than reality.The time spent together was like building castle of happiness in my heart.. which has been crushed & thrown away... I look at my self in the mirror & feel that I don't know my self anymore..I still have to pick up the pieces of my dream castle.I wish someday you will will realize & come back to me.. my heart is still waiting for you