Lonely Heart ♥

Hey baby I don't know how am I suppose to live without you.. why am I being punished for just loving you & loving you so honestly.I wait for you to give me a glance..I have my world shattered without you near me,trust me I am still picking pieces of my heart to make my World back again .. but u walk by me & I have my world falling apart again, I have no strength in picking the pieces darling.When I was a child I laughed from my heart.. but now I laugh to hide my tears.I ask my heart all the time was I wrong or I had to go through this pain,it makes me feel walking all alone in the cold winter night with eyes filled with tears..all alone.I wish I could tell you & show you how much I love you.. cant you see it in my eyes? They say the solution to every problem in this world is when you bend you knees & Prayer ... I bend my soul & my tears as the offering of prayers to you my God .. will I still get what I want?? I ask to my self why did u cross my life, why did I feel so much love for you when all you had to do was leave me alone.Wish I could click on pause when I was in you arms .. I would have spend my entire lifetime in it.why do love hurt so much & why was I chosen & why did you come into my life .. Wish I could replace my heart every time in pain & tears & smile like life was the same without you.Its true that You and me could make the best of both worlds.My heart still wonders if you still thinking of me the way I think of you my darling.I feel like I have to hide myself in the closet & cry & when I am step out of the closet pretend to be happy to all & to your eyes too.I wish you were here beside me , I'd hold you & cry like a baby & never let you go...
Sometimes I wonder why is that life has its own chosen twist & turns .. will i ever get an answer? every night while going to bed,I have you in my thoughts,just next to my dreams weaving the dreams of u & me and I feel like living in that dream forever & never to wake up .. coz dreams are much better than reality.The time spent together was like building castle of happiness in my heart.. which has been crushed & thrown away... I look at my self in the mirror & feel that I don't know my self anymore..I still have to pick up the pieces of my dream castle.I wish someday you will will realize & come back to me.. my heart is still waiting for you