Felt but never said ♥

There are things that are felt,that cant be said..and if i try to ask ..I just cant. Even if you do it for me after I ask you to do then its useless.It hurts deep inside but it doesn't show.. and i stay always tired and torn between the decision, of Should I tell you or .. should I not. I cant tell you to change you whole approach of loving me, or feel possessive about me ,or surprise me once and get me a gift. Fill my eyes with tears of happiness by doing something cute for me, that I don't know about if I can tell you to make the world more beautiful in my eyes and change it. No matter how close you are to me and how, I cant tell you the way I want our life to be, You should know on your own the way I want our like to be. There are times that am Quiet & that I've calmed down, agreed to the things the way you want.. and got used it, But that doesn't mean that you always assume that I have surrender or given up. Sometimes you think that I am bored, but I hide the fact that I am tired of seeing in your eyes "NO LOVE" for me... tired knowing that you don't love me.Don't let me get to a point my love that I wish I wouldn't have spoken.I wish that you Love me & feel the same for me.I didn't come to you longing the whole World,just your Heart...I get sad sometimes but I forgive you. Dont forget my heart is with you no mater eve if you are oceans apart. I will always keep running in & Out of your mind,not just when you will miss me , also when u will be sad, Lonely or need a shoulder to be on. Nobody can find love.. it just comes your way,& when it comes you push it away .. Its the most hurtful thing to do, its like,turning down the blessings from above.I am hoping you will hug me & say everything is alright.. waiting ... Miss you ♥♥

You're in my heart and in my dreams
You're everywhere and so it seems
So many times I've heard that so
Hold back the tears that upset you somehow...
What would I give to see your face?
Nothing's the same without you....

The Cruel You

Its all like you left me alone ....what are you? How cruel are you?That you hurt me.have pity on me,how cruel are you? Why my Love is so easy for you to bring me to tears, u have been best at giving me tears with your words & Action.Why do I accept that You hurt me when my soul is a part of you.May be someday you will know the value of my tears & Love I have for you.And why am I accepting this torment at you hands? If this not Love , my misery is from it & if I am to be blamed .. I cannot say never again.. and this how you want me to live in torment .. than I will . cause you don't care. have you ever put your self in my shoes .. if it really hurts you & realize.. its hurts me too.was this all game for you.. to play with my emotions tell me? why did you do this ? SO all the love care & the tenderness I would see in you is all lost? If i have hurted him what he would do more than this to me?in contrary,I've never taken from him the half of what I've given him
what did he want? to kill me! how can he be relieved when am injured!
he haven't seen affection from anybody but me , he only saw goodness from me
If I died it surely would be so much better than to grow through it, what am goin through.I`m scared if he knows what he meant to me when he leaves.In general , it doesn't make difference now and I'm not a loser because now i know am the winner..The day will soon come and I`ll forget and maybe if I was still with him i would be living regretfully.If it was my fault tell me what was my fault??It`s natural when you really love someone you trust them..Short speech, there`s no point in talking now what`s the use it`s over...he probably organized everything and has already set for his life now and living it and it dosent matter to him what was in his past..On the end, am not going to stop my life because the world is still full of good people..

“Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man’s rib. Not from his feet to be walked on. Not from his head to be superior, but from the side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved.”