Felt but never said ♥

There are things that are felt,that cant be said..and if i try to ask ..I just cant. Even if you do it for me after I ask you to do then its useless.It hurts deep inside but it doesn't show.. and i stay always tired and torn between the decision, of Should I tell you or .. should I not. I cant tell you to change you whole approach of loving me, or feel possessive about me ,or surprise me once and get me a gift. Fill my eyes with tears of happiness by doing something cute for me, that I don't know about if I can tell you to make the world more beautiful in my eyes and change it. No matter how close you are to me and how, I cant tell you the way I want our life to be, You should know on your own the way I want our like to be. There are times that am Quiet & that I've calmed down, agreed to the things the way you want.. and got used it, But that doesn't mean that you always assume that I have surrender or given up. Sometimes you think that I am bored, but I hide the fact that I am tired of seeing in your eyes "NO LOVE" for me... tired knowing that you don't love me.Don't let me get to a point my love that I wish I wouldn't have spoken.I wish that you Love me & feel the same for me.I didn't come to you longing the whole World,just your Heart...I get sad sometimes but I forgive you. Dont forget my heart is with you no mater eve if you are oceans apart. I will always keep running in & Out of your mind,not just when you will miss me , also when u will be sad, Lonely or need a shoulder to be on. Nobody can find love.. it just comes your way,& when it comes you push it away .. Its the most hurtful thing to do, its like,turning down the blessings from above.I am hoping you will hug me & say everything is alright.. waiting ... Miss you ♥♥

You're in my heart and in my dreams
You're everywhere and so it seems
So many times I've heard that so
Hold back the tears that upset you somehow...
What would I give to see your face?
Nothing's the same without you....